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[Alina Wilson]

I just told Denise that I would vote for her in the end over Kelly, which is simply not true. This is just me figuring I probably lost the IC and so I may as well set up the cards for Denise to take Kelly if she wins the final IC. If Nataworthless wins she'll probably take Denise, but I think I can make Denise take Kelly.

I told Denise I would have to vote for Natalie bc if I didn't people would go "lol alina ur so bitter and mad she owned u" but that's just a total lie. I don't care what these people think of me or how I vote. I'll do whatever the hell I feel like. But she seems to believe that, and I think if she wins the final IC in a F3 of Her, Nat and Kelly, she'll take Kelly. If I win this, great, then me or Kelly 100% make the final 2, if not both of us - and if I get voted out here, there's a roughly 2/3 chance of her making it. I NEED one of us to win this game. Any other outcome would be scarring.

It's not like I can convince them to vote with me, so I may as well try to pull something off beyond the grave if I fall here.

Kelly and I both kind of agreed that Natalie is worthless, pathetic, and sucks at life(okay she didn't say those things but c'mon it's all true) and we'd both probably vote Denise over Nat in the FTC if they were the final 2. LMAO. If I get voted out I'm going to tank Nat so hard. That's my goal. Not to pump up Kelly, bc I know she'll probs beat Denise anyways, but to tank Nat bc that way if it's Denise/Nat Nat gets her ass beat. I have so many ways I can do it too if necessary. Myself > Kelly > Denise > Natalie is the order I'd like to see the F4 win. So I'm setting up the cards to at least avoid a Natalame win. Even better would be me or Kelly tho <333

[Alina Wilson]

I wish I had put Denise as "hardest to talk to" right now. Because like. She uses faces in the weirdest places and she just...talks in this monotone way that's like. Are you joking? Are you serious? Tbh it comes out condescending to me the way she does tosses "" or ":/" without any words. It's just. Ugh. And the way she just says some things that probably are jokes in this strange monotone way like "Weirdo." Like. USE AN EXCLAMATION POINT OR SOMETHING IF YOU'RE JOKING. Sighhhhhhh. I can't tell if she does this on purpose or if this is just like the way she types and it comes across uberstrange.

I think I'm the only one to do the challenge so far. Apparently Denise works 11-8 shifts(srsly wtf kind of place does that to a person) so maybe she'll never have time to do it? Praying for that LOL. But she said she wasn't in EST soooo if she's in like PST that could mean she still has time...bleh. Maybe she'll get stuck in heavy traffic? That'd be cool. Natalie too. And Kelly(sry ily but like I need to win thanks). Maybe then I'd have a chance to win. Maybe they'll all get power outages and their phones will explode. I dunno. Something.

[Alina Wilson]

holy fuck i think i might be staying

[Alina Wilson]

Holy fuck. I just pulled off the greatest mindfuck in the history of time.

i'm fucking staying alol

[Alina Wilson]

3-1 bye natalie

[Alina Wilson]

So yeah. I lost the immunity challenge, which was most certainly an incredibly unfortunate occurrence. Hilariously enough, though, somehow I think I managed to flip the tables.

Kelly ended up winning immunity, so that challenge did not scar me for life with a Natalie immunity win. If that had occured I would regret not voting her out over Edgardo in F5 for a while, since Kelly came to me a few hours beforehand and suggested switching the votes to her...to be honest, that might not have been a very bad idea. but I was obsessed with the idea of outlasting Edgardo and making him feel like a moron for flipping. Natalie sucks, but I don't care that much about spiting her. It likely would have been better, however, logically, to keep Edgardo in the game considering Natalie is more intelligent than he is and likely a bit better in challenges like puzzles, and considering I knew it was a memory thing and spent hours preparing useless notes, I still decided to keep the more brain-inclined one. It was more of an emotional, rather than a logical, decision.

Regardless, she did not win and my worst nightmares were not realized - I still had a chance. Kelly had prior discussed forcing a tie with me against Natalie, right? So perhaps I wasn't doomed after all!

We talked a bit, and she decided that she did indeed, want to keep me in the game, however she didn't want to force a tie. Oh god. That meant all my hopes of surviving lied on...Denise. To be honest, I don't blame Denise at all for wanting to remove me from the game - it's probably a pretty smart move, but I think there are actually advantages and disadvantages to keeping me around, which I will get to soon.

Unfortunately, Denise was deciding not to budge and that I was Fabio and simply must be exterminated! Rude. Sure, it's a compliment, but it still doesn't feel very good. Anyhow, ultimately it came upon my shoulders to try and convince her to keep me in this game over Natatard, The Worthless One. Like really if she ended up winning this game I would die lol. And not in a good way.

Ultimately, my goal had to be to convince her that keeping me had more advantages than keeping Natalie, yeah? Inititally I went with the jury-votes approach. I have maybe 2 votes on lock, whereas Natalie for sure wins if she gets to the end. Like really, I do not think I'm as much of a threat as these people make me out to be. Yes, I likely have all three Kidd votes, but Colby? Never talked to him. Edgardo? ...Who knows what he's thinking. Natalie? Hates me. And actually I guess I might have Kelly/Denise, nvm, I am actually a threat alol. But it doesn't really matter, because I tried convincing her of that anyways. She basically ended up saying "well i will lose to both of you."

And that's when I think I found my first "in." Sure, there wasn't a logical in yet, but there was an emotional one that I could exploit. I basically went on a tangent over if she felt she was going to lose, why would she want the person who's trash talked her the whole game, Natalie, to win over me? Now obviously this is all hilarious coming out of me, considering I've probably done even more trashtalking than Natalie, but it's like, she doesn't really need to know that? This led us into the final course of the conversation, in which challenge strength came up, now, apparently, I am more of a threat than Natalie, but that simply isn't true.

This is where I brought meta knowledge into play. The final challenge of last season was some kind of strange puzzle mindgame monstrosity, and we all know how well I fare in those. And we know how well Natalie does in those. This was when I finally managed to start turning her over to my side. If it's the same as last season, when they've used many recurring themes from it this season, then Natalie has a very strong chance to win, and I do not, right? Now, clearly, there's actually a pretty decent chance of there, well, not being a puzzle as the final challenge again, but whatever. I'll just plant the possibility into her mind and hope for the best.

And if it's endurance? They set a time for the final challenge last season! Meaning, we would all arrange for it to be at a time we had free time. Also, ANYONE can do well in endurance. Natalie could do just as well as I if she was determined to. That's the whole point; that's why it's called endurance. I neglected to mention the possibility of flash games because A): I'm really fucking good at those and B): It's probably not gonna be one lol.

Then she gave in. "If you can convince Kelly I will go for it." lol ding ding ding. I already had Kelly convinced, now all I needed is you. Vic-tor-y! So I immediately consulted with Kelly, and then she had the idea of making a group chat and having me say "You both said you'd do it if the other would lol." Which...yeah, I really couldn't have pulled any of this off without her. Sure, I did have some influence, but without Kelly's help, it would have been totally null and void. She's my freaking hero!

So I waited a few minutes, to pretend I was talking with Kelly, since I told Denise I was only talking to her or something like that, i don't really remember. But either way, I didn't want to wait too long because she might go to bed or something, and that would just be ever so unfortunate! I couldn't let her just go to sleep on me and ruin all this! So I made my move a little earlier than I had first anticipated out of that fear, and added both of them to a chat, and...boom.

I won. The group chat was mainly for Kelly to further convince Denise, and apparently I made "interesting points." So, yeah, go me! I'm ever so interesting and amazing. ^.^

Ultimately, Denise was converted over to our side. I showed them LJ's submission from last season and that was the moment that I got my ass out of the frying pan. That was the moment I truly became safe. That challenge was clearly not something I'd do well at, and if it's anything remotely as extravagant, I'm fucked! So...that's when it happened. They talked it over some more, and all went according to plan. "If you're down, I'm down." Said Denise, and all clicked into place. My horrible fate was averted. 

Kelly agreed, and...kaboom. The plan to vote out Natalie was set in stone. I feel amazing. There is no reason for them to lie to me! There are no more idols, there's like, nothing! Unless they feel like blindsiding for no reason which alol would be so dumb I don't even want to consider that as a possibility. There is a small chance of their minds changing prior to TC...but since Natalie never logs on to AIM, the chances of that are really fucking slim. How can she change people's minds if she's never there? Hahaha. So, unless something absolutely improbable occurs and she logs on for once in a blue moon, I'm feeling pretty safe.

And I couldn't have done it without Kelly. She is literally the best person in this game(no offense everyone else) and is a totally phenomenal and amazing human being. I wouldn't rather have anyone else for an ally tbh. If me and her can sit in the final two together, that would be so amazing I would just cry tears of joy lol. She's the absolute best and I'm not afraid to admit that. Altho I'll feel like a total moron if she actually hates me and is making fun of me in her confessionals LMAO.

Either way...should tonight go as planned, one of me or her will be winning the game! And I love it. That's all I wanted. The horrible, disgusting possibility of a Natalie win has been averted, and unless for some strange reason, the jury has decided Denise is more worthy of a victory than myself and Kellygoddess, then...we're set. One of us will win this game. I'd love for both of us to sit in the final two together, but like, that's only gonna happen if I win the final IC. I know her and Denise won't take me to the end - like, I wouldn't either if I were them. I wish she would if she won, but I don't expect her to. But I'll take her if I win, because like...hello? Awesome. It would be like, the best final two, in the history of, well, ever! sorry charlie

Like, I definitely think I have a stronger chance of victory against Denise. But I really don't care. Kelly is perfection and us being the final two would be the best thing in the history of, well, time. So if I win the final immunity challenge, I'm taking her for sure. Hopefully it actually isn't a puzzle and is endurance or something. Tbh I'd rather it be a flash game than endurance - endurance is stressful as heckie, and flash games I'm decent at I think. I mean, 563, hello?! Yeah, I'm definitely pretty freaking awesome. ^.^

So yeah, tonight Natalie is going to be crying. And I'm going to be relishing in it. I hope she writes up paragraph after paragraph of teary rage. I'll bask in her despair. She'll be so pissed off about it and that's hysterical to me! I can't wait. I mean, I definitely hope you post TC like...Iunno, 6 hours early, so there's no chance of things changing back to me! ^.^ That'd be pretty amazing, don'tcha think? All I need is for this round to go as planned and me or Kelly will win this game, and I'll be content with either of us winning! Sure, I'd rather win myself, of course, but like, if she wins I think I'd be at least half as happy as I would be if I won, hehe! So yeah. I just need this to go my way and then I need to fight my ass off in the final immunity challenge.

Oh yeah, nevermind - it can't be a flash game because uhmmm I think Kelly asked Jeremiah, it mighta been Denise, and apparently Jeremiah said it was live. ugh if there are puzzles involved I will totally be pissed off. Bleh. I just have to hope it's something that I won't suck at. That's basically all I can do. For tonight, I'm hoping for the best, and then next round I'mma have to do the same, hehe. Let's see what happens!

[Alina Wilson]

What are these people talking about? "Oh so sorry it was a blast to play with you." "Sorry nat." Pffft what? God, I know they're just sucking up for her jury votes, but still, it kind of pisses me off. Denise, the other day you called her jerk. Kelly, this morning, you called her annoying. Like, jeez. What a buzzkill. I was having so much fun laughing at her inevitable pain and sorrow and these two ruined the laughter.

Like, a blast to play with her? REALLY? SHE WAS NEVER ONLINE!!! And when she WAS online, she was talking shit behind your back. How is that a blast to play with, Denise? Do tell! I wouldn't be surprised if this sucking up made Natalie more pissed than she already was, which actually is an enticing concept that I'm willing to entertain viewing.

Blah, whatever. I'm ecstatic to be in the final three, I seriously am. I was so happy, and I still am, but this whole deal annoys me ugh. I totally understand why they're sucking up, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. How boring. I hope she at least cries out a couple paragraphs of anger and rage, because, like, it would be no fun otherwise. I'll be really disappointed.

Whaaat? I just checked the TC thread and Natalame posted. You're kidding me. She can't actually be rooting for me now, yeah? Please, it's so obvious you just want me voted out. LOL tho at her insulting Denise. Finally she says something right. Thank god. Kelly's not a coward, though, she's wrong on that. She's a legendary human being. <3 Like seriously. Actually, I'm thinking since she raged at Kelly, that's where she'd rather vote. I mean, I hope so. Me and Kelly are worried that the jury might be thinking of voting Denise which is another horrible concept. I was so happy because me or Kelly would be winning, and I'd be SO happy with either outcome, preferably me winning ofc, but still! But now, it's like, if DENISE somehow pulls off a win, I'll be pissed. Kelly even said she might think of keeping me because she doesn't want to lose to Denise. Um. Please take me? Hahahahhaha...I really doubt she will, but I'll hope she will if she wins it.

Like, I know I need to win, though. Like, I want it to be me and Kelly in the final two. If Denise wins...I'll cry. And not happy tears. I need me or Kelly to win, ugh. The final IC is tomorrow night, and I'm really scared. Brian told us it was the hardest IC he'd ever seen in any game before, and um...that's frightening. Like it really is. I have a horrible feeling in my gut Denise will win it, take Kelly, and then win the game. I don't want that to happen. I'm going to do my best to prevent it...sigh. I'm so scared.

This is the final stretch, and it's all or nothing. Here we go.

[Alina Wilson]

LOL I LOVE THIS.

MY LIFE IS COMPLETE.

[Alina Wilson]

lololo @ natafail

Moron. Like, if I wanted your vote I would have just not said anything. I don't even want your fucking vote. Go jump off a cliff. No one fucking likes you. And no, that wasn't the reason I did it, I know I'm getting voted off regardless if I lose the IC, so like whatever. You can mock Denise all you want but sorry mocking Kelly isn't cool, fuck you. Maybe if you weren't such a hypocritical moron who is so desperate to be right you lie about intending on doing things you clearly weren't intending on doing just to get back at people. And when challenged on those statements you don't even bother arguing that you were, in fact, going to do those things. Just drop off the planet already. Holy fuck is she dumb.

[Alina Wilson]

I think these people are actually thinking about voting for Denise in the end. Like, are you serious? Laughing at Kelly in jury chat? Like what the hell? If they're actually thinking of voting Denise over Kelly I will literally cry. Maybe I'm stupid, but it's just, I need me or Kelly to win. I don't want denise to win. This pisses me off so much. If they're actually thinking about voting Denise then I might just consider jumping into a furnace.

[Alina Wilson]

Maybe I'm just taking this all too seriously - I probably am, but it still annoys me. I just really don't like the idea of sitting back and letting Kelly get mocked by someone who just can't handle getting her ass beat. Like, Kelly doesn't deserve to have all that shit thrown at her, let alone have the entire jury laugh at her. If they're actually doing that that's pretty sad. I realize I'm a total hypocrite here, considering I've made fun of people all game, but ugh. It's just really stupid. I'm not so much scared of the idea of being voted out as much as I am annoyed with the idea that if I get voted out I have to deal with the jurors. I mean, I really just don't want to have to interact with them at all. Sure, like, if I win the final IC I have to answer some questions. Nice. That's different than actually having to interact with them. It's not even a fifth as bad.

Sigh. The final IC is tonight, and I really don't feel prepared at all. I've NEVER felt prepared or like I was gonna win any of these though, so, that might be a good thing? Hehe. If I win, of fucking course I'm talking Kelly. I wouldn't be able to stomach a Denise win tbh. I need me or Kelly to win or I'll be so pissed lol. I don't know if she'd take me. I don't expect her to. So I have to win for sure. If Denise ends up winning this game, I swear I'll- yeah, I better not have just jinxed it.

[Alina Wilson]

lol Natalie is kind of delusional. Everything in this game that's happened in like the history of ever is apparently all part of her ~master plan~. like bitch lolno. "MY ARGUING WITH YOU WAS ALL TO MAKE ME SEEM LIKE A GOAT " lmao. But seriously, she's pretty delusional...she can't recognize when she's been outplayed. Like, hello, "kelly and denise i would have kicked both of your asses!!! BUT YOU'RE DUMB FOR VOTING ME OUT!!!!!! I AM DA SMARTEST!!!" omgwtfbbq get over it. You got not only Alinaowned, you got Alinaowned and Kellyowned. And you got not only Alinaowned and Kellyowned, you got Deniseowned too. And when you get owned by Denise, you know there's a problem.

Seriously, she just can't handle the fact she got decimated. "I MADE NO MOVES UR SO DUMB." "I WOULDA KICKED UR ASSES." "ALL PART OF MY MASTER PLAN111"

Failing at the social game and logging on only once in a blue moon?

All part of the plan.

Being an unlikeable, annoying twat no one likes?

All part of the plan.

Getting voted out?

All.

Part.

Of.

The.

Plan.

I also miscalculated the time of the final IC like a moron. It's actually tonight. Sigh. If I lose it, I'd at least rather lose to Kelly. Losing to Denise would be really anti-climactic and boring. Of course I'd rather not lose at all, however. A final two of me and Kelly would be hysterical at this point. I wouldn't be surprised if they hated me, and for some reason they all hate and are laughing at Kelly...like...lol. Blah. I wish there was more to update but there's no strategy whatsoever anymore. It's literally just Natalie bitching all the time. Thankfully, she decided to recede away into some hole somewhere. I hope that I never have to interact with her again. It would be really nice if that could happen.

[Alina Wilson]

This wait is really boring. Like, honestly. I haven't talked to Denise at all since the last round, and Kelly hasn't even really been on! Not that there's anything strategy-wise to talk about, but still. It gets lonely and boring, lol. The anticipation for the challenge is killing me. Like, I'm honestly really tired right now and I wouldn't be entirely surprised if I were to suddenly pass out. Like, as much as I'd like to go and nap or something, if I overslept and missed the final IC...yeah. That's um...not on my to-do list, sorry. I don't even have working headphones so I can barely do anything interesting on the computer. What am I supposed to do, READ? I'm not 90.

Technically I did read tho. My old confessionals. Why is my grammar on page 8 so bad. It's appalling. I wish I had an excuse of being drunk when I wrote it or something, but I couldn't even if I wanted to, because age. It's seriously really bad. I'm honestly tempted to go back and fix all the spelling errors. I seriously think I might. It's really bad. Don't even go back and look. It's like vomit-inducing.

Jesus though. This challenge is basically the end-all-be-all. It's the difference between first(unless the jury suddenly hates me, which I wouldn't be entirely surprised to find out) and third place for me. If I win, I'm in the final two with Kellygoddess and then I have a strong chance to win, but even if I don't I'll be happy! Because, um, Kelly is <3. If I lose it's almost certainly a Denise/Kelly final two, and the fact that the jury might honestly be considering voting the person WHO HAS BEEN TAKING PRIDE IN BEING A GOAT THE LAST FOUR ROUNDS is really sad. Kelly said there's a small chance she'd take me because she thinks Denise has a better story arc than her or something and she'd rather lose to me, or something like that, a couple days ago...so I mean, she might take me if she wins. If Denise wins I'm doomed though.

The fact that Brian called this the hardest challenge he's ever seen in an ORG is sending shivers down my spine, if I'm honest. I'm terrified of losing, because I honestly think that I'll win the whole game if I win this challenge! lol, maybe I'm totally wrong and I've pissed the whole jury off, in which case that's still kinda hilarious? I don't think I'd even be mad. It'd be pretty funny, in my opinion. Like I'm not gonna be MAD if I get voted off tonight. (well, techinically tomorrow, but if I lose immunity you may as well just not even have us have TC, just get it over with and say "Alina, the tribe has spoken. gtfo already bitch god i hate you why aren't you dead why did you have to last so long you skank thank god you're finally gone." as soon as I lose.) I'm just gonna be kinda disappointed.

Honestly, if I do make FTC, I'm probably going to have to lie and omit a bunch of shit about my game because half the time I started doing strategies then getting bored of them halfway through and scrapping them for something else. Not necessarily a winning argument. I mean, I'm not even bothering to think about it, because the only way I'll even make FTC is if I win. Sure, I know who I'll be up AGAINST, since there's not a chance in hell I'd take Denise. I'd rather watch Redemption Island on loop for 5 years with no breaks of any kind. Hell, I'd rather watch ASPCA commercials on loop. And those are pretty darn traumatizing.

I mean I'm really bored. I could, like, leave the house(shocking that I actually do this sometimes, I know, I'm also surprised) but like...there's what...4 hours left? I don't want to like get stabbed by a shiny Brandon Hantz in the tall grass. I mean I might just write out a torchwalk/rites of passage or something. I dunno. I just want this to be over with, because this is seriously not good for my mental health. I'm pretty convinced that I'm developing an ulcer right now. I NEED to know the results of the IC, and it hasn't even started yet! Bleh.

[Alina Wilson]

welp

You know how I said I wouldn't be sad if I got voted off? Yeah I was wrong. This honestly sucks, a lot. I feel like a total failure right now lol.

Like to start off the challenge my browser crashed and I lost a whole minute or two just because of that, so it's like oh great I'm off to such a great start. Then I end up with my best friend, a puzzle, which it takes me a stupid long time to beat, and then I get to a crossword puzzle. Like I did terrible. I couldn't figure it out for the life of me lol. Like I'm not 70 years old, you know? I don't just sit around in a rocking chair doing those all day. I have better things to do... like play ORGs on the internet. Yep.

I wish someone would just shoot me right now. This sucks. Like, I don't want to have to wait twenty-four hours for the TC results because it's totally obvious what's gonna happen lol Kelly already told me so I'm like, whatever. I just want to join the jury chat and get out of this lol. Like I guess I should be proud of myself, oh yay I made final three but it's kind of hard because I just feel like I totally disappointed myself and fucked everything up for me, Like, Natalie was totally right. As soon as I get to a challenge that takes actual brainpower I can't do jack shit lol. My brain is pretty much more like a decoration than a brain it seems like. Totally useless. Sigh.

I mean, I'll be over this by tomorrow(or the day after, it really depends when I'm finally voted off and I can get away from this lol) I feel totally pathetic for taking this as seriously as I did right now lol.

But, pretty much it's not over for me because I wanna do my best to make sure people vote for Kelly. :/ Like if Denise wins, I mean, I'll just go guide myself gently off a cliff or something and feel like a total failure. Because all I wanted was for me or Kelly to win so I mean if neither of those things happen then I pretty much failed. sigh

Like I'm feeling too much to even write out right now. Just a lot of bad feelings that I wish weren't there lol. I'm just really fucking disappointed in myself. fml

[Alina Wilson]

lol at Charlie not getting my joke? Maybe he's really mad I had other final two deals and he hates me now alol. What annoys me is the fact he says this is the worst F3 ever. Like, uh hello? Me and Kelly are in it. That alone puts us above like 99% of the rest of the final threes. If we were the final two we'd be the best ever, but alas, it's simply not to be. Am I seriously the only person who sees how awesome we are? Welp, whatever. I totes accomplished my goal and got Edgardo and Natalie to lose - all that's left is to make <3<3<3KELLY<3<3<3 win.

Basically I asked her if there was anything she wanted me to bring up to try and take Denise to the jury and basically the only thing she could come up with was Denise's wonderful self vote. She doesn't wanna bring it up in her speech 'cause it'll sound tacky or something. So I'mma bring it up and a whole bunch of other stuff to try and make Denise lose this game. Like, sorrynotsorry, but Kelly is easily the best person in this whole game and I need her to win. ^.^

Like I'm trying to plan my FTC questions in a way that makes Denise look like a dork no matter how she answers them and in a way that makes KELLYMAZING look AMAZING(like she even needs to try <3) as she answers hers. Also I just totally recognized the irony in the fact that I'm using Alina and she's using a character named Kelly. The wrong Kelly, but STILL, lol! Please let her win omg <3 I'm not sad anymore. I just wanna get voted out. I hope there's an emo corner in Ponderosa for me to cry and mourn all my woes, or something. Iunno.

Anyways I just applied for another ORG since I'm DOOMED unless Kelly randomly goes crazy(which won't happen just end my pain) so hopefully I can be less of a spaz and win that one. <3 Pray for me.

Can I at least be a PW for next season or am I too mentally unstable?