Welcome!

[Alina Wilson]

...I hate you people. Not really. But ugh. Why did he have to approach me about a final two deal so early. No one does that. That's so dumb. I didn't want a final two this early. Like. Even if I tried to get rid of him, and said the final two thing, people would go "lol why didnt u tell us til now" and then I'd be like. Crap. If I didn't tell people and voted him it'd be like "WOW ALINA U LIED TO US" So it's like. This is so dumb.

Here's a massive problem. When I signed up I didn't think I'd actually like people that much. I assumed I'd be on a tribe with some asshole that I hated. That didn't happen. I like everyone now. I'm like the slightly-more-insane and 50-times-more-manipulative Lisa Whelchel right now. I just talked with Ami, and here's the thing. She seems genuine in the way she talks, she seems nice and funny and stuff, like, she wasn't offline because of her own will; I assumed it was because of it. But, it's because her computer and phone were screwed up. So now, I'm just...confused. She's the ONE PERSON on this tribe who replies really fast when I message them(Charlie kind of does too, same with Lex) which further makes me believe that when she says stuff, she means it, she's not fabricating things. She also said she had my back 200% because I'm the person she talked to most.

My thing is, I trust emotional, nice players like her over strategy bot version 72's like Malcolm ANY DAY OF THE WEEK. Malcolm and his kind make smart moves. What if he realizes I could possibly be a threat? He could fuck me over any time! But with Ami, players like her, if they like me personally, THEY WON'T VOTE ME OUT. At this point my ideal alliance would be Her/Lex/Kathy/Myself, because I trust them all more than Charcolm. I really, really do not get good vibes from those two. They(particularly Charlie) might be nice on the surface but I feel like they have something together and I'm their third wheel they're stringing along. I was thinking, if I subtly suggested it to Lex and Kathy, I could get them to possibly go after Malcolm, get his annoying final two restriction he has on me out of the way, and move from there, but the guy has me by the damn throat now. I have no idea what to do. I don't WANT to go to a final two with Malcolm. While I think I could possibly beat him out SOCIALLY, I think someone like him is like to make big ass moves and do well in competitions, and thus, if the jury is full of a bunch of Russell Hantz fanboys and fangirls, I'm sure to lose. I want to take someone to the end who might play a similar game to me, but weaker, if that makes sense. I think if I DID take Malcolm to the end, my ass would be dominated so fast I wouldn't even have time to say my FTC speech.

Malcolm is the person I have the least emotional connection to on the tribe. Cutting his throat would be, you know, AMAZING! I would love it. It would be hilarious. But now, what the heck can I do? I don't want him blurting out "lol alina final 2 betrayer" AFTER THE -FIRST- TC. I would become the next Jonny Fairplay, trustworthiness wise. I wish I could magically find an idol, give it to Ami, and have her idol him out and then, you know...everyone wins! But no. Like really. I think I'm playing so well that I'm playing horribly, if that makes any sense whatsoever. I have everyone being nice to me so, thus, it naturally makes it harder for me to vote people out.

...Last minute decision to cancel tribal after JT backing out? ...No? ...Okay. :hides:

[Alina Wilson]

I'm having a complete strategic meltdown and it's only the first tribal council. What the hell is wrong with me?

[Alina Wilson]

Okay. I have a plan. I have a horrible gut feeling that will end up in a "Alina is overplaying and can't make up her mind, let's vote her out instead!" scenario, but I'm praying that doesn't occur. Okay, so my plan is to subtly bring up I feel sad about voting out Ami to Lex and/or Kathy. This way, if they seem receptive to it, I think they might bring up voting Malcolm. Charlie is much better socially than Malcolm. Heck, Ami just said she'd vote Malcolm because she doesn't think he communicates or talks well back to her! So, if they bring up the idea of voting out Malcolm and ask something along the lines of "Hey, Alina, do you trust Malcolm?" Or "I don't really trust Malcolm" I can bring up the final two thing and downplay it like I had no idea what I was doing.

It's my first ORG, right? I had absolutely no iea what ever to do! I didn't know things like that happened. I didn't trust him and thought he was overplaying, but I didn't know how to bring it up! Oh, Kathy, I trust you the most(i really kind of do but I think if ami sticks around I'll trust her more. I don't know. I'm getting a really honest vibe from her and I hate it so much. I wish she just stayed invisible because I like her right now :/), not the vile evil Malcolm! Of course, this takes a LOT to go right and none of these things will likely occur...but if I can get Malcolm to get voted out somehow I would scream in joy. I really. Really don't trust him. I just can't. He seems like way too hard of a player and I'm afraid of facing him in the end. Why did he do this to me? There's more I feel like talking about but I can't get this out of my head.

[Alina Wilson]

Unfortunately, as much as I would have loved to have this work out, my plan to keep Ami seems to have failed. Ami was totally on board to vote Malcolm, and Lex doesn't trust Malcolm either. I got him to bring up the possibility to keep Ami and boot Charlie(for weakness in challenges) or Malcolm(untrustworthiness, Lex thinks he will flip, I believe he would as well) and I was feeling brilliant. Genius! Lex had to go and asked me to talk to Kath while he was gone. So I did that. I tried to approach the subject of possibly keeping Ami in a way that didn't sound like I wanted to and in a way that would sound like her/Lex's idea, but there weren't really any bites on her end. She seems completely disinterested in that possibility, which, while I can understand completely from her perspective she wants us to be in the middle of Charcolm and Lex, I really wanted Ami around. I gave up since it's clear there's no way Kathy would vote Malcolm or Charlie out. Charlie seemed interested in the idea of keeping Ami, but in that case it would have to be me/Lex/Ami/Charlie, and Lex doesn't care for Charlie, I don't think, so that's out of the window.

Unfortunately, Ami is going to have to leave tonight, and I'm going to have to go back and up Malcolm's butt. I did tell Lex I didn't trust Malcolm, either -- I avoided mentioning the final two thing for now, I was going to mention it to Kathy if she seemed alright with the idea of keeping Ami, which, well, she obviously isn't. If Lex tells Malcolm about this, I'll just claim I was trying to make him feel like he wasn't on the outs of the four, and that way he wouldn't suspect a final two deal between myself and Malcolm...apparently, however, Malcolm told Lex he was paranoid about the girls getting together. I believe that this is him trying to keep Lex under control in his own way, but the fact Lex told me this proves that I am his #1 ally, so I would really love it if we didn't lose any more challenges, because I'm pretty sure Kathy would rather remove Lex from the game next, and I don't have 50 votes, unfortunately. Wish I did. Lex is trustworthy as hell and I don't want him gone, so I'm going to do my best in the upcoming Immunity Challenge to assure that I don't have to go to Tribal again. This sucked.

Speaking of the challenge, I've been working on that damn thing for a while, and I'm under the impression I won't be doing any better than I already have. I only got to the score I did by immense luck anyways, so whatever. I'm hoping its enough, considering I did it on my touchpad without an external mouse.

So here is my challenge input:



Hope I did it right. My score: 563. I spoke with Monica shortly and she claimed she couldn't get out of the 150's, so I assume I should be able to at least get 2nd in this challenge(which actually is worse than getting 1st or 3rd, because getting the treasure map is horrible and then I'll have to share it with everyone to avoid getting a target on me. Lame.)...unless she was lying, which is a possibility. I lied to her as well and said I was stuck in the 300s, when in reality I've had this 563 thing screenshotted for a while, saving it as a resort in case I were to not be able to get higher. I don't know how well Natalie is doing, but she's smart; I have a feeling she might win it, but I certainly hope not.

If this score is enough for me to achieve victory in this challenge, I would like to choose the Treasure Chest for the tribe.

Why? It's a no brainer, really, getting the treasure map is clearly a clue to an idol or something along those lines, and I don't want a target on my back. I'm already afraid I might already have one that I don't know about. I don't want to have to deal with an idol, too. Also, I don't want to lose. At all. At all at all. If I lose again I'm going to blame it on Edgardo. Yeah, I'm blaming every single thing that goes wrong in this ORG on Edgardo now, I don't think I've said that here yet.

The guy is kind of a prick, he was taunting Charlie in PMs during/after the challenge and basically intentionally being an annoyance, I wonder if he realizes this is a social game or if he's just screwed and so he's planning to it up as much as he can. I hope it's the latter. He's pretty annoying. Everything is his fault now.

Either way...my plan was kind of a Xanatos Gambit and works out for me regardless, although I certainly would have preferred keeping Ami.

With regret, I must cast my vote for...



Not as pretty as I would have liked, but oh well. I'm sorry about this, Ami, when you read this, and I really wish I could have gotten Malcolm out of the way instead. Unfortunately, there was no way for me to pull that off.

My bootlist:

1. Ami( )
2. Lex(Sorry, I like him, but I have to stay loyal to the four unless Kathy tells me otherwise.)
3. Charlie(Not Kathy, and not Malcolm. Sorry. Here by default ;()
4. Kathy(I have to stick with my final two for now, there's nothing I can do about it.)
5. Malcolm(Regrettably, I'm placing him here.)

If there's anything I forgot to put here, please tell me! Thanks!

[Alina Wilson]

Okay. I'm trying to wrack my brain for ideas for the challenge and nothing's happening so I decided to come and write up a confessional instead. Maybe I'll get an idea.

First off, I'm pretty sure that episode title is mine and I am really flattered right now if it is <3 I like giggled with glee when I made that connection. Like, I've giggled evilly a few times thus far, but this time it was of sheer joy.

Anyways, I've come to the conclusion that each day that passes I become even more and more insane and paranoid. I'm noticing it myself and it's not stopping. I'm trying to use logic here from now on instead of running around like a headless chicken. Ami's been voted out, which is...well, unfortunate, I did think there was potential to work with her. She asked me for honesty and I told her she was going to get voted off, I know some people might criticize that as sheer stupidity; maybe it was, however there was little to no chance of her having an idol or anything. All of her posts were public, not in confessional, and I assume the treasure map leads to an idol or something LIKE an idol. If she had a way to redirect votes I would be very amazed. And I seemed to be the person she trusted most, so really, if she did have something like that, it'd be bye-bye to Mr. Malcolm.

On that note...I'm thinking, you know, chances are, it's probably best for me to stick with him for now. I said I'm trying to use logic, look at things from the other players perspectives. If I were to get voted out, I could easily out the final two deal myself. The very thing I am paranoid of him doing, he should equally be paranoid of on my end. So, really, I have him by the throat just as hard right now. There's no chance in hell he's leaving for a while, so I may as well follow him around for now.

You know, I've decided, since in the AIM chat Kathy brought up goodbye messages, I know she won't get this until post-game, but I'll still post it here anyways:

To Ami:

You were nice, and I wish you could have stuck around longer. I thought we could have worked together well and been good friends. However, like I said in my voting confessional, there was no way for me to keep you in the game. Sorry about that. :/

Now that I've done that, I may as well give updates thoughts on all of my tribemates.

Lex:

Lex. I feel somewhat bad because I'm 150 to 200% sure that I'm his top ally, his number one. But I'm thinking it's best to forget about him and stick with the four. Unless Kathy heavily insists on it(unlikely) I plan on telling her, should the subject come up, that I want to stick with the four. I don't want her to have any doubts, and a final four + a final two isn't a bad deal, even if I don't think I can trust Malcolm, I can always hope he gets screwed over somehow...and if that doesn't happen, I can always screw him over myself, if need be.

Charlie:

I'm starting to think, instead of Malcolm, that I am Charlie's #1 ally. This is because, I know he "loves" me and Kathy, but when we've brought up that Lex is pretty much screwed, he seems...reluctant to want him gone. This is making me think, that deep down, Charlie might not want Malcolm around. This could be reaching, and it could just be me overthinking, but I play too much forum mafia to not overthink the stupidest, smallest things. A Lex/Charlie/Kathy/Me wouldn't be that bad, but...ugh, to be honest, I'm completely undecided. My play in this game isn't even close to well thought out. I'm just doing whatever the hell I feel like, and it's very strange. Not what I expected to end up being. I should probably work on changing that if I want a shot at winning. Anyways, I'm starting to trust Charlie more and more as time goes on.

Kathy:

Kathy, I think she is, I believe I mentioned this beforehand, in my last confessional, but I'm far too lazy to check and I'm stuck in stream-of-consciousness mode so, whatever. She's smarter than she lets on, and while that could be a useful skill, I'm starting to LOSE faith in HER loyalty to me. Maybe I'm paranoid, but I just get vibes like she's not too invested in our alliance. I'm keeping an eye on her...the main reason I want to stick with the four is because if I feel like if I say otherwise, and she wants to stick with the four, she could still do whatever the hell she wants and vote me out. In reality, she's the true swingvote right now on the Kidd tribe. Not the two of us. Her. I'm sticking with the four unless she says otherwise, because...well, I don't want to get screwed into the minority. Doesn't exactly sound like a fun time.

Malcolm:

My thoughts on Malcolm...he's the most confusing human being in this game. I can't get a read on him whatsoever. As soon as I start believing one thing, the next second he does something to contradict my prior beliefs. I have no idea what to do with him, and that scares me. I'm HOPING I can trust him for now, because that's all I can do. I think he may be a better social player than I previously gave him credit for; him and Lex talked about music for like 30 minutes and, I mean, I'm 18 years old and I'm not too picky when it comes to music. I only knew like...1/4 of the names they were talking about so I kind of just sat there going "uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hi I'm here too :3" Not really, but it was pretty much like that in my head. Blegh. Need to keep him on my side and AGAINST Lex.


Alina:

That's me. I'm awesome.

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Anywho! I somehow utterly dominated the ITT challenge, which is...not what I expected. I feel pretty good about it, I suppose you could say "Wow, Alina, don't you think you're making yourself look like such a ~challenge threat~?" But really, I don't care. I would rather try my hardest in challenges instead of throw them. If I got voted out after purposely sucking at a challenge I would feel like an idiot for weeks. So I'm going to do my best in challenges, tribal, individual, doesn't matter.

On a similar topic, I contacted Monica-post challenge and told her "good job" for breaking out of her "point slump". I believe I mentioned earlier that she told me she was stuck and couldn't break 150 -- I figured that was likely a lie to get me to try less hard, but I'm not gonna let her know that. I'm gonna make her think I think she just totally got better all of a sudden. The stupider everyone thinks I am, the better. As long as I'm not annoying...boom. No one wants to vote me out as a nice, sweet, nonthreat. Win-win-win!

I also talked with Natalie and Vytas, the former just seems to be pissed about me wrecking shit in the challenge, the latter seems genuinely interested in keeping a bond with me, he's not asking for info, like Sandra was, he's trying to keep conversation going...meaning, he's a smart gameplayer, or he just likes me. I'm assuming the former, but if the latter is true that would be great! Being liked is always fun. Besides them, I haven't really been keeping in contact with people from other tribes...I suppose I probably should, but I don't want to seem like a social threat. And if I do seem like a social threat, I want to seem like an emotional, indecisive idiot as well to balance that out. To be fair, I actually have all of those traits, but I'm playing them all up 5, 10 times, so, whatever.

OH MY GOD I NEARLY HAD A HEARTATTACK

I just accidentally backed out of the page. I thought I lost all this. Thank. Fucking. God. Oh my god. That was worse than going to tribal.

Yeah, so, wrt Tribal, I feel much more confident now that I'm certain I'm not the first person voted out. I had this paranoid feeling that I would be the first person out, somehow, no matter what, when I signed up. But, thankfully, that feeling has proven itself false and the people on this tribe have proven you know, loyal to me. So, I think I can trust the people here. At least for now. If I grow too complacent that would just be stupid of me.

And last, the most lame part of the day. Our challenge.

Literature.

Who came up with this? I want to smack them. Like, listen, I know I write and write and write in here, but that doesn't mean I'm good at literature! Look at my terrible grammar. I toss semicolons and dashes in places they probably shouldn't even be. I might APPEAR literate at first glance, but deep down I'm a cavewoman. This is hell. But, apparently, Malcolm, our renegade white knight seducing hero, writes short stories to girls he has over. This didn't really surprise me in the least. Either way, I'm glad he stayed now, because apparently he has the superpower that's just right to help us with this challenge. As for me, I still have no ideas whatsoever to contribute, so I don't want to lose points in collaboration...but to be honest, if we kick the other tribes asses in the other departments, it doesn't matter anyways. We also have the +7 thing, so...meh. I think we'll still win. Still going to try though.

I don't know, Charlie and Alina, married forever? Charlina. I joked about that earlier with him. We seem to be walking the line of a "us two" alliance without really saying it, whereas with Kathy I have said it, just not a final X deal, and with Malcolm...well, we already know that strange, strange story. I'll have to make sure I don't let my girlfriend know about my secret affair with Charlie. Welp. Nothing else is popping into my head to talk about...so this is all, for now~ Laters!

P.S: Have I mentioned how amazing it is to be able to bold and italicize things IN the preview instead of having to preview each time? I can't believe I've never come across this function before. It's amazing.

EDIT: TOO MANY SQUIGGLY LINES

[tbird]

Aug 24, 2014 5:23:34 GMT Alina Wilson said:

Who came up with this? I want to smack them.

Most people that meet Jeremiah Jeremy feel this way. It's natural.

Also, you're adorable btw. Please keep posting novellas because I don't read nearly as often as I should.

[Host Brian]

This is my reading for the day, and it's rather good.

[Alina Wilson]

I should probably write a confy. I'm really tired though so this may or may not be coherent.

Okay, so...I was gone for a long, long portion of today, so there's not all too much to talk about. The stuff that HAS happened, however, is pretty interesting.

So I woke up to see Lord-Of-Final-Two-Deals, our legendary warrior, post an...actually, in my opinion, very impressive story. I thought it would be alright, yeah, but he kind of blew me away. Lex later popped up and fixed some errors. I personally feel that there are still some weird periods and stops in there, I pointed it out in the chat but no one seemed to care. So I kinda just left it at that. My grammar, as I've said previously, is not the greatest. So I could just be, y'know, totally dumb.

I'll just get the challenge talk out of the way, there was other stuff that happened in between, but I may as well get it out of the way. Kathy had the idea to add images, and she came up with this hilarious picture of Ami getting eaten by a shark(Sorry Ami!) and it made my night. Then Lex decided to go and add pictures all by himself. So...good for him. He's working hard, but, yeah, I definitely feel completely useless in this challenge. The only thing I did was get us the +7, and suggest adding a picture of a beach. Wow! Alina: Greatest Competitor 2014. (i need an eyerolling emoticon to put here)

WELP. Then we had the ITT challenge. Malcolm, our great hero, entered the fray against mortal enemies Kelly and Sandra, the latter of whom decided she already won enough Survivor-related things so she'd stay home, leaving just Malcolm and Kelly to battle it out. Malcolm decided, instead of waiting to post on like...the :58 or :59 mark, he'd post at the START of the minute. What a genius plan! Kelly would never see it coming. Except she did. And she wooped his butt.

Malcolm decided to confront her before round four and asked for her to throw it to him so Sandra didn't get anything. Well, he asked that after round two, and she agreed as long as she ended up winning the third. To be completely honest, I know Malcolm's smart, and I wouldn't have put it past him to have intentionally thrown that challenge to get second place so he could get his hands on that treasure map. That thing is clearly an idol or something like an idol. I'm assuming it's less powerful than the average idol, and just cancels votes out and forces a revote or something, because of the bootlists. That makes me think that there'd be a chaotic vote after one of those are used with everyone's bottom person besides the person they're voting out getting voted for.

Anyways, I think he purposely threw that challenge to get a hand on that map. He claimed, once he retrieved it, he'd share what it was to us, but I think it's obvious to everyone that it has got to be a clue to something like that. Chances are, he'll share like one or two lines with everyone and say "That's all" when in reality there's like twenty more. It's a good test of his loyalty to me, as well, if he decides to share only some with the tribe and more with me...that would prove himself completely loyal to me. When he retrieves this clue, it's going to reveal a lot. Much more than just a clue.

Now, for the fun part. Kathy talked to me after the ITT and brought up that she didn't trust Lex, she thinks that he's just using us for numbers because he thinks we're easily convinced or manipulable or something(if that's the case I'm certainly giving out the impression I want to be giving *wink*) She claims that because Lex told me to talk to her instead of himself, that he's some sort of mastermind who wants blood on my hands instead of his. To be completely honest, I don't understand how this makes any sense at all. I just went with it because I want to stick with the four for now. So I went along with what she was saying, even though it made...very little sense to me. I feel like she's just trying to pit me against Lex, which...whatever. Fine with me. I was acting subservient and basically parroting what she said for the most part, although I gave her some more ammo to distrust Lex. I told her about his meltdown over the use of the word "fair" and apparently he melted down in front of HER as well. Too funny. He's rightfully named Lex, because he's more of a paranoid trainwreck than I am(and I was VERY paranoid last round...right now? Not so much.)

Also, apparently she thinks Malcolm is trustworthy by the way he talks, and thinks Lex is a snake. Funny, since those are the EXACT OPPOSITE VIBES THAT I'M GETTING. To be honest, I wouldn't be surprised if Malcolm has given everyone in the four a final two deal. Incredibly unlikely, but if it came out that that was the case I'd nod my head and go "Figures." She seems to trust Charlie and has also noticed that he seemed very trustworthy of us. She seems to be reluctant to make a decision at Tribal, but she said that if we DO have to vote out Malcolm, she thinks we can convince Charlie to do it without him feeling like we're disloyal. I feel the same.

Hilariously, I feel like I'm EVERYONE ON THIS TRIBE'S #1 ally at this point, except for POSSSIIIBLYYYY Kathy. Malcolm, final two deal. Charlie, he loves me and I'm pretty sure he values me over Kathy. Lex, he values me over Kathy. Momma Kath, though, she's a bit of a snake. Allow me to show you what I mean:

Hahah ILY
Did she tell you? lol
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About what?
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Charlie Herschel
Oh awk maybe not
Dont tell her I'm telling you? lol
Alina Wilson's icon
You loving us?
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Charlie Herschel
HAH DUH
Alina Wilson's icon
She told me that lol
43 mins ago
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Ilu2tho
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Charlie Herschel
Kathy Vavrick O'Brien
12:12:47

I wish lol
12:13:01

Ok so yesterday I was soo bored while Alina was doing the ITT comp


hideyokidshideyomarcus
12:13:26

awww lol


Kathy Vavrick O'Brien
12:14:15

So I told monica that Natalie messaged Alina and wanted to collaborate together to try and beat Monica..
12:14:19

Monica was super pissed
12:14:23

at Natalie
12:14:34

I just had to start some drama!
She told me she loves us though lol


I find it particularly interesting she chose to tell Charlie this information, and yet not myself. Not only is she pulling the strategy of "stir as much shit as possible", she didn't tell me about it, BUT she told Charlie. AND she mentioned to me earlier how much she loves to talk game. She's not even making it subtle how much of a threat she wants to be. I think she's a great shield. I'm purposely playing the role of her sidekick for now, and if anything goes wrong in a swap-scenario, I think I would be kept over the threatening, strategic Kathy, y'know?

I also think she sees me as an asset. She's not an idiot -- she's intelligent, and I can control intelligent people. I play the role of the ditzy person who has no idea what to do strategically, and sheep around for a little bit, make everyone see me as a tool, and then, later, they'll realize that the tool is explosive. They might lose a hand; Pretty fitting for a pirate-themed game.

Either way, I've rambled a bit, my conclusion is there is a possibility Kathy values Charlie over me, but I think Charlie values me over her. It makes me a little worried about her...but, for now, I'm gonna sit back and let her think she's in control. In reality, I'd like to think I'm the one pulling the strings, just in a way no one probably expects. I kind of feel like the queen. I'm pretty sure I was #1 on everyone's bootlists last TC, meaning, the very last person they'd want voted out. And that fact is hysterical to me.

LOL. Hey. This is amazing. I just opened up a fortune cookie. Guess what it says. This is the best thing ever. I'll type it out for y'all: "You will obtain your goal if you maintain your course." I mean, I don't even really believe in these at all(who does?) but this is way too funny. Apparently I'm winning. Yay! I think I'm comfortable believing the fortune cookie for now.

I kind of want to talk about my relationships with the other tribes. I was thinking about what would happen in a swap scenario. So we have Lowe(I hope I'm not getting them confused) which I think, by far, I have better relationships with. Monica and Sandra have both kept in light contact with me, but I feel they're for strategic reasons. Still, being on their list of strategy-talk-partners is nice. Vytas has kept in communication ohgodmyspacebarisbarelyworkingnow, as I've said before, in a way that makes me think he's smart. In a social way. Not in an info way. So it's basically strategic, he's just being wise about it. Then there's Chet who I've already discussed. He's...Chet. That's really all I know about him. I don't know if he has a personality of his own or not. Then...Denise. Another ORG newbie. She's...there, I guess. I think she's probably next out over there. Her or Sandra.

Either way, most of this tribe I've spoken to and I think they all see me as a possible swap/merge ally. As for Every...well, it's quite the opposite. I think the only person I have a good relationship with over there is Katie who I loved, but, we haven't talked since the tribal assignments. So. There's Natalie, who still gives me gigantic radars and I want her voted out, idoled out, medevaced, her computer to crash and her to have to leave the game, whatever it takes to get her out. I am scared shitless of her. She just gives me the biggest threat vibes in the game. I want her out ASAP. Kelly and Edgardo I have never even spoken a word to. Kelly seems funny in the forum-threads, and Edgardo...I've already said my thoughts on him. The guy's kind of a...you know. It's not a nice word, I'll leave it at that. It rhymes with lick.

...I meant prick, of course. Gawd your mind is dirty. There is also Colby and Brett, who I've both talked to. I think out of the two of them, only Brett might like me, but I think they're both threats. That tribe I want extinguished so bad but since they won the Treasure Chest I find it unlikely they'll be going to the third TC. Hopefully the second one, but I have a bad feeling they're going to end up being my archnemesises and Kidd and Lowe will have to team up to remove them from the game.

I had another thought, a swap might not actually be likely. With the ITTs, there'd either have to be a completely pointless(or misleading) one, or none at all, which would alert us to a swap. I'm starting to think we're going to merge at three tribes, which would probably be for the best, since I think I'm in a great position over here. I'm not really paranoid at all right now. I'd like to avoid losing ICs, but if we DO have to go to TC, I think I'm pretty much safe in any scenario to make it to the top 3 of the tribe. I'm not sure if I could survive to a final two people on the tribe Malcolm/Denise style, but I'm hoping that won't be necessary.

Anyways, I'm done for now! My eyes are glazing over and I'm dyiiing.

...i just accidentally ripped up the fortune note in half

what does it mean

probably not good things

...crap

[Alina Wilson]

Treasure map:

Let's see if I'm right, huh?

This Irish born pirate was one of the few female pirates.
ANNE BONNY

This pirate looted a ship filled with gold and diamonds at Reunion Island. It was worth over one million sterlings.
JOHN TAYLOR

This limbless pirate has a bit of an obsession with crocodiles.
CAPTAIN HOOK

This pirate was the first to fly the Jolly Roger, although he modified it from the commonly known version of today.
EMANUEL WYNN

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ADAM BALDRIDGE

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BULLY HAYES

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Is there one idol per tribe or just one idol in general, btw? Or will you not tell us?

[Alina Wilson]

No confessional yesterday, I know I was wayyyy too tired. So, I'll go ahead and do it now.

So, yeah, let's start with the challenge because I just read theirs. Um...yeah. So evidently Lowe decided they were too cool for school ONCE AGAIN after not showing up for the ITT challenge, and just decided "You know what, whatever. TC is fun. Let's go, guise!" ...Fine with me. But yeah, with Every, there's no way Id actually say this out loud but their story is actually better than ours in a few aspects. If I said that in front of Malcolm or Lex, though, there's no denying that I'd be strung up and burnt on a stake.

But yeah, ours is still better in a few respects, I mean, their captain died at the end of theirs. Doesn't that kind of go against the whole...I don't know...POINT? It also dragged on. And on. And on. And it had too many book-y explanations that annoy me whenever I try to read. I don't care about "the gentle green glistening in his eye," or how the sun shone in a way that made this single strand of hair stand out from the rest. Yawn. Apparently some people enjoy that. That just annoys me. I can't imagine stuff in my head at all, so, that might be why. Their story was also kind of unrealistic. Yeah, actually, now that I'm typing all these criticisms out ours seems a lot better. Yay! #TeamKidd it is then.

Anyways. Lowe is going to their first tribal, even though JT is already out of the game. I talked with Chet about this, he approached me, I don't really want to approach people for game talk or alliances unless really necessary. That makes you look like a threat and a leader. Which is not what I'm going for here, as you all know by now. And I'm rambling again! But, Chet told me that "he should be safe tonight" so somehow he's managed to make his way into an alliance over there. I'm actually kind of in shock. I assume they won't vote Monica out, she's their most active member. Vytas...I doubt it. He's fairly charismatic and is on from time to time. I assume it will be Denise or Sandra. I'm not sure who. It's kind of a shame since I think there is potential for me to work with both of them down the road...I'd rather Denise go because I think Sandra would express more interest in working with me, but at the same time I think Denise is more manipulable. So either way it goes down, it'll be pretty lame.

But yeah. Malcolm received the treasure map, from now on I shall call it "the freaking nightmare." Really, it was pretty annoying. I solved six of those on my own and Malcolm gave me the answers to Anne Bonny and Barbarossa. After I solved them all and submitted the list, I started giving him names spread out. I mean, I wanted to submit stuff first. So... I gave him, like, 3, and let him think he got 3 on his own. He really doesn't seem to be very responsive when I talk to him though. It's very annoying. Whenever I decide I want to try and trust him he acts fishy and confuses me. notfun

Anyways, I submitted the freaking nightmare's answers here in this thread, as you can see. Then that failed. And I needed to ask for a treasure map thread. I was anngryyyyy. I thought for sure Malcolm got them because he already had the thread. So yeah. Then I entered the answers. Then, after 10 minutes I decided since I got no answers I would look for alternate answers(most of which were given to me by Charlie, thanks Charlie! <3) and try every possibility I could. Evidently that was a waste of my time since my first was correct. Derp.

So I'm linked to this...THING. I can't even call it a puzzle. More like a demon. It took me an hour to get 33% done with that thing, and I was talking with Charlie as we were doing it and he was already at like 50%. I was like. Okay, screw this; This is clearly not happening. So I gave up and just opted to go for a walk and forget about that thing. And by the time I came back Charlie was pretty much done. I was rooting for him to get it over MALCOLM. I think I'm Charlie's #1 ally -- I think my bond with him is the strongest compared to everyone else. Kathy is obsessed with strategy which is talk I'm trying to avoid so as to seem like a non-threat, Malcolm is...Malcolm. Lex is...sometimes there, sometimes not. I think Charlie really would never vote me out...so him having the idol is ideal. I don't really want it anyways, after thinking about it. I'd probably waste it at the first tribal council possible. So, I'm hoping Charlie got it.

Unfortunately, I'm under the assumption Malcolm got it unless Charlie tells me otherwise today. Bleh. Charlie even grazed the surface of a possible final two deal with us(seriously, I'm popular. Wow!) and I was just like "YES CHARLINA FTW" or something along those lines, and I mean I never AGREED to having us sit in the end. I just said something vague enough that it could be construed that way if he really wanted it to...so I'm not lying. Really.

Charlie also made a point of calling me innocent or something, I forget how it came up -- oh, yeah. I had this plan to do with an idol if one of us got it and we were in the minority of a swap situation, to do with having everyone call one of the tribemembers(who has the idol) annoying and stuff, get the other tribe to vote them, then play the idol on them and vote someone out on the other tribe. It's unlikely to be necessary here, as it's a three-tribe game, but it was something I wanted to bring up to do with the idol anyways. I wanted to bring SOMETHING to the table strategy-wise, just in case I came across like I wasn't doing too much with it. He said that we couldn't use that strategy with me since sweet innocent Alina would never annoy anyone. Heh. Yeah, about that, Charlie...

My strategy seems to be working really well, I mean, I love it. I even joked that I was secretly evil(in the dark at night on Halloween...but let's ignore the small things.) I don't think it'll dawn on him that I was telling the truth until much later. I think I probably need to bring up more game talk with Kathy, since she seems to be into that. She's telling Charlie more than she's telling me, but I'd rather have Charlie as a #1 than her. While I do not want to take Charlie to the end -- I think he's much more charismatic than I am, I think he'd be loyal to me til the endgame. The evil vibes have been slowly dissipating, so that's nice. If it came down to me, Charlie and Kathy as the final 3 on Kidd, bye bye Kathy! I think she'd want to keep Charlie over me for some strange reason. Logically, she should keep me from her perspective, but I still think she likes Charlie more. But, I think Charlie values me more as a fact. So, I'd rather keep Charlie at that point, if it comes to it. Which hopefully will not ever happen.

Me and Kathy did talk about who we thought would be voted out(SPOILER ALERT: We got the tribe who was going COMPLETELY confused. Hahahaha.) I brought up it might be Edgardo or Brett, Edgardo for being...Edgardo. (He's still constantly messaging Charlie trying to be on his good sides...not very subtle, dude.) Or Brett for being inactive. She brought up that she was hoping it was Natalie because she seemed like a threat.

THANK GOD.

I'm not the only one who's noticed that! That's a nice to relief to have. I was secretly hoping Natalie would go, but I didn't want to bring it up just in case she misted Kathy or something. Thankfully, there's at least one other person who's seeing what I'm seeing when it comes to her. Unfortunately, Every isn't going to Tribal. Lowe is. I was gonna bring that up and laugh about it but she went offline. So. :/

Anyways, the next challenge is semi-live again I think, which means it's probably to do with a lot of posting-esque things, so...that's right up my alley as I have so much free time right now it can't possibly be healthy. We're sitting out Kathy as she's one of the two weaker in challenges people on our tribe. I'd say it's her and Charlie who are the weak links, challenge wise. I'd like to believe me, Lex, and Malcolm are the big competitors over here. Maybe I'm totally overestimating myself, I hope not. But every time I start thinking that, I have to remind myself..."563."

Other minor stuff, not really worth mentioning happened. I talked with Kathy about the clues(even though I had them all solved by then) and since she didn't seem receptive in giving me any clues I stopped giving her some. I can't tell if I'm in a good position with some of these people or not. Kathy and Malcolm are enigmas. I can't read them and it sucks.

And yeah, I talked with Malcolm and talked about how great it would be if one of us got the idol and we'd be set if we did that. He was like "yeah i'm malcolm w/e here's a weird reply that could be interpreted 50 different ways" Charlie said he wanted the idol for US which is when he started scratching the surface of a final two between us. Kathy..didn't seem to care at all and said she'd work on it in the morning. I'm assuming she really didn't want it, deep down. Lex wasn't even online to get the clues. He snoozed he losed, I guess. It's Charlie or Malcolm with the idol, and I sure as hell hope it's Charlie.

That's really it for now.

[austin]

Seriously. Keep this up, it's really intriguing.

[Alina Wilson]

i'll write even longer posts if you give me 10 immunity idols

no one has to know

especially not brian

Warning: This post was written in a weird mood and there may or may not be multiple annoying comments directed at tribemates and other tribes in here.

Today was...interesting. It started out amazingly and further cementing my belief that I'm the queen bee of the tribe, and the last half left me facepalming and staring what seems like another inevitable tribal council in the face.

Where do I even begin...how about Charlie? I think that's what happened first. So, I write up that confessional, an hour passes without, well, much of note, and then my hero, Charlie arrives on a white horse and messages me the greatest news in the world! He found the idol! We were set. He told me this information, not anyone else, and I feel I cemented my spot as his numero uno ally. So, immediately we discussed what we should do with it. Should we keep it to ourselves? Should we reveal it to the tribe? There were advantages and disadvantages to both of those choices.

It was obvious there was an idol per tribe -- otherwise it almost certainly would be gone for us by now. I'm willing to bet someone on both of those other tribes has an idol. However, I do not believe it is necessarily Monica and/or Edgardo who possess these idols. I believe they also shared the treasure map with their tribes. You'd be stupid not to, unless you were 100% sure you were in the minority. Neither of them had visited tribal council, so they had no reason to believe that, and they definitely wouldn't want to be voted out for hiding information, yeah?

Anyways, ultimately, we decided to think about it for a few hours before making our choice...eventually, we decided sharing the idol with the tribe was the wisest move. After all, having something like that in our possession in case of a tribe swap would be invaluable, but if we were to try and use it to our advantage after hiding it, we, or, at least Charlie would be untrustworthy. It'd be impossible to get around that. Also, it gives him a shield. No one would vote him out with that. We need it, as a tribe, because we need it to take down Every. They're a freaking machine. We have Lowe who...clearly isn't putting all that much effort into the "winning" department. They should ask Charlie Sheen for some advice.

It's basically up to us at this point. I'm assuming, if we merge without swapping, it will become Kidd and Lowe VS Every. Which is actually a great situation for me -- I wouldn't mind that at all. I would love it. I would adore it. Every as a tribe, I really have no connections with. And that annoys me. So I want them all gone. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. I wish I could just snap my fingers and vote them all out. Unfortunately, that's clearly not happening.

While we were discussing what to do, Malcolm showed up. He did, earlier, actually. And pmed me and said that he just now started on the puzzle. I was like WHAT? No wonder Charlie got it. I was in shock and awe he didn't even do the puzzle yet. THEN, later, as myself and Charlie were discussing our idol plans in deep secret, Malcolm decided to announce to me, that the idol's been found. Oh no! Who ever could have it? ^.~ Well, I tried to play it off confused, like I had no idea -- I don't think I did very well. This further influenced me to want Charlie to announce himself having the idol, as I was scared the way I reacted may have caused him to belive -I- had the idol and was trying to lie about it to him. If Charlie announced it...any possible trust lost is restored. But, Malcolm then announced in group chat the idol's been found and decided to pin it on Edgardo. Blaming everything on Edgardo is most definitely fun, but it was fun to see him talk with such certainty that Edgardo had it.

Charlie and I were like "wow this is awkward" in PM and since we were still discussing what to do at this time, after we made up our mind to reveal I told him to just pretend he was AFK at the time and come on when he got home and announce he had it. Malcolm then, in PMs, we talked about how much of a threat Every is and how utterly screwed Lowe is. We decided to try and work on our bonds with Lowe, so that when they're (almost inevitably) wiped out pre-merge, we can work together to stop Every. We're hoping it's a 12 player merge and we enter with 4 or 5 Kidds, 1 or 2 Lowes, and 6 Every. Of course, it would be GREAT if Every lost a challenge at some point, but...I'm not seeing that happening anytime soon. So we're planning worst-case scenario. Malcolm also decided it's best to try to stir some conflict up in Every's ranks, and he decided to tell Natalie, who apparently is a close connection with him, he's talked about it before...I can't say I'm surprised. They're both intelligent threats. Although I want Natalie and every member of Every gone SO BAD.

I rambled off topic again. I should make rambling into an Olympic sport. Anyways, he decided to tell Natalie that Edgardo had the idol. All the while I was laughing, because if there WAS only one Idol, Charlie has it. If not, I don't understand why he doesn't think Edgardo wouldn't share the clue with the tribe like Malcolm did. I mean, the people we're playing with, as much as we might be tempted to believe so, are not idiots. They're here for a reason. But, whatever. I decided to let him do his thing. He then took half an hour to tell everyone in group chat what he was doing. So...once again, more points to #TeamMalina. Notice how my name is most of that? That's because I'm cooler. ...sometimes...


Anyhow, time passed and then it was...challenge time. We discovered it was Sandra voted off, which is unfortunate, for me, but I saw it coming. Nothing that can be done now. I hope Monica leaves next. She doesn't seem to like me much. I assume that's because of Kathy's evil plan to try and pit her against me by saying Natalie tried to get me to work with her or something. I actually mentioned I didn't think Monica liked me much to Kathy, earlier, just to see if she'd fess up...she didn't. Sad. I would have claimed I found it hilarious(it kind of was. I mean seriously stuff like that is funny. I wouldn't do it because I actually want to win, but...I would have laughed about it and told her to do something like that again. Sigh. I guess I'm giving off too many innocent vibes to be evil. It's kind of disappointing actually that my plan is working so effectively. Maybe my next ORG I'll play more like Kathy. For now? Nah. I'm fine with what I'm doing here.) and it would have restored my trust in her. I'm not her #1. Charlie is. Too bad for her I'm Malcolm, Lex and Charlie's #1s, huh? I'm not getting voted out anytime soon unless there's a swap or an incredibly-early-merge, in which case I'd expect an un-merge and then a re-merge, but that's probably not happening. I feel invulnerable over here, to be honest.

My ideal boot order if we were to lose challenge after challenge after challenge

1. Lex
2. Malcolm
3. Kathy

Then me and Charlie are the sole survivors of the tribe <3 How amazing would that be? So amazing.

Either way, if we do go to Tribal, I don't have anything to worry about. It's bye-bye Lex if that happens. He's a trustworthy guy and all, but I have to stick with the four and Malcolm. I'm never voting Charlie out while he has that idol; I might need it. Kathy? Actually...as much as I wish it would be possible to vote her out over Malcolm maybe, it'd be too risky and wouldn't work out in my favor. It's annoying knowing Charlie is her first pick over me and I can't realistically do anything about it.

Anyways, we had that challenge and Lex recommended we do a few practice runs, where we did pretty well. Of course we encountered the most annoying thing I've ever faced in my life. Something called the "YOU CANNOT POST MORE THAN ONCE EVERY TEN SECONDS." wowgthxcryingrn We were so good we broke the system. Lex decided that since we did that we were to cool for practicing and had us move on to the challenge. Where we sucked. And faced the ten second limit twice. Once Lex did it, and once I did it, although I don't believe mine mattered. I think the time limit was already up at that point, so....whatever. Either way, we got...3 points. Yeah. Hi Tribal. I see you in the distance. I'm gonna be paying you a visit soon. :s Not fun. But I'm resigned to it. I'll probably get a Lex parchment all set and ready to go. I think I'll make it blue or green this time. Shiny.

And then we have the reveal of the idol. I told Charlie to wait until after the challenge so it didn't distract anyone during it. He revealed it, and...kablam. The truth was revealed and everyone bowed down to him. I don't blame us, Charlie's pretty awesome. He'd be a good captain. I get to be First Mate, though!~ Anyways, Malcolm pmed me and said "Charlie's just NOW telling us this??!?!!??!?!" Okay, I slightly exaggerated it. It was more "pft wtf" than sheer anger and rage. I think I did a bad job of passing it off as Charlie's explanation which he posted of being busy all day.

I think I did bad in this conversation as well and I think I may have raised a few of his suspicions. I hope not, but...nothing I can do now if I did. We agreed that "Edgardo" has the idol, for now. ^.~ I don't understand why they think there's only one, though. That makes no sense. If there was only one we wouldn't have one of our own!!! Sigh. I don't want to seem smart so I'm just trying to let it be, although I think I'm leading a bit too much when it comes to challenges. Kind of want to dial it back but I also DON'T WANT TO LOSE. Losing sucks so much. Like really. It's like having a birthday and discovering that your dog rolled around in the cake and ruined it. Do you want to eat hairy dog fur cake? I sure don't. I want to keep the dog away from the cake and you know...party. That sounds much funner. I'm really good at coming up with strange metaphors, if you hadn't noticed yet.

Well, afterwards I spoke to Kathy about it and she seemed to already have suspicions of Charlie having the idol. HOW??? Is she psychic? I mean, really. I asked her how she knew because "I had no idea o.o" and she said she was good at reading people. Hm...either she's wrong because, hello, I'M HERE AND PUTTING ON A COMPLETE FACADE! Although it's been slipping from time to time recently, mainly in group chat. Seems to work much better in one-on-one conversations. Not sure how that works. Or she's right and has figured me out. If that's the case...I want her gone. Gone gone gone. Kathy is starting to scare me. She's so strategy-oriented that I literally sit in there in shock as she pulls up fictional scenario after scenario. But then says "well it's just a scenario we can't know until it happens" and I'm like wait. So I'm like, in my head, thinking, what was the point of us talking about that again? She confuses and intimidates me greatly.

She also decided that we should work on our bonds with Lowe and Every, just in case of a swap because she had a total freakout over it
(to be fair I was too and until that challenge popped up over time I slowly got more and more convinced it was a swap and was convinced I was going to be Silased) so I tried talking with Katie. She didn't seem very responsive. Yawn. Okay, bye, go home then. If you're not going to even try to make yourself look useful to me then...I really don't need you here.

I talked with Vytas though, and he did seem responsive. <333 Vytas <3333 I like him. I hope we can work together in a swap or a merge. I also want to talk with Chet, because apparently(according to Kathy, AKA Pete-Yurkowski-In-An-Older-Womans-Body AKA talkstoeveryone I mean really the other tribes must think she's playing a huge hand if she's really just going up and talking strategy to so many people.) him and Monica don't like each other. So. I hope he can get Monica out or something if that's the case and I can maybe bring Chet/Vytas/Denise over to us? Would be amazing. Screw Every. They suck.

Blah. This post has been really long, even for me, and I'm even getting tired of writing so much about today. But a lot happened, and this is honestly a pretty condensed version of all the weirdness that happened. Sigh. I feel like my bonds with other tribes aren't what they should be, but I feel if I talk to them too much they'll think I'm a creepy stalker and like I'm too much of a player. I don't want to be seen that way. I want to be seen as an idiot who they can take to the end. I'm planning on kind of keeping this whole thing up until my FTC speech. I mean, I'm in pretty much complete control over here on Kidd. If I can keep that kind of control no one else is seeing up the rest of the game...I can win this. It's many rounds away, I know, but it's nice to imagine myself being taken to the end by someone who thinks they can beat me and then me busting out this amazing speech. Aaaah, I can dream. <3

EDIT: Some paragraphs were too long and I split them up.

[Alina Wilson]

...We got first. In the challenge. We got first. I stared at the screen, wondering if the hosts had somehow horribly misspelled Every or Lowe as "Kidd" but it sunk in. Somehow, we got first and utterly destroyed the other tribes. How that happened, I'm completely unaware. I was so certain, SO certain we'd be heading out to Tribal and it'd be bye bye Lexington, but no. I'm pretty delighted, actually.

I mean, at this point, I'd say I'm guaranteed to make it to the merge if there's no tribe swap. We merge at 12, I survive two rounds over here easily if we lose both. We merge at 11, we'd have to lose three ICs in a row for me to have even a shot in hell at going home, but I don't believe Charlie would choose Kathy over me. He tells me everything. Kathy told him that she told Monica Eddy-boy had the idol, and he came and told me that right after. It's amazing. I didn't plan on being in the center of things like this at all, it just fell that way and it's absolutely wonderful. I'm like the sun, and everyone else on the tribe is like a planet. You do what I want and you can keep orbiting around me and doing what I want you to do. You piss me off or get too close...you get burnt to a crisp.

I feel that I've managed to make myself in a wonderful position, somehow, considering my complete meltdown during the first round. I don't really know what I was thinking then. I mean, I guess I could go back and read, but, you get the point. Keeping Malcolm has worked wonders for me, and I'm completely devastated I actually considered getting rid of him in the first round. Let's just rename this from "Survivor Warriors" to "Everyone Loves Alina" because, really, that's what it is on the Kidd Tribe. Malcolm mentioned in group chat he's running out of things to talk about in confessionals, and I just wonder...HOW? It must mean there's really no changes or anything interesting going on for him game-wise, but for me...everything revolves around me. So I keep having so much to talk about. It's a good sign that he has little to talk about, because that means he's not making any big plans or changes.

Which is an incredibly good thing, since that means I'm still his number one and should stay like that for a considerably long time. I really don't want to lose twice because I want to keep him, but in order to keep him in that situation over Kathy, who I'd rather get rid of over Malcolm in that situation, I'd need to force a tie. I doubt I'd be able to convince Charlie to vote her out over Malcolm. So I'd have to reluctantly agree to getting rid of Malcolm in that scenario, which would really be a shame. Getting rid of anyone would suck, since I'm like the princess of the tribe. I guess losing Lex wouldn't be that bad, he doesn't seem to care too much about talking to me one-on-one anymore. He's just a cannon-fodder leader for me to put the target on if we swap and me and him are screwed. Or an extra vote. Whichever. He's a nice guy, but he's disposable if it comes to that.

The next round, I'm not sure if I mentioned this last time or not -- I'm trying to avoid reading my old confessionals until everything is over and then I can have a bunch of second-hand embarrassment for past-me again -- It'll either be a swap, or, we'll stay in these tribes until the merge. I sincerely am praying for the latter scenario; a swap would suck donkey butt. I take back my theory of ITT's needing to be pointless or misleading; I brought that theory up to Kathybear(look at me with all the nicknames today!) and she said something along the lines of them being able to pick new tribes. That makes sense, and is, unfortunately, plausible.

I'm trying to just talk game with Kathy now, she doesn't seem to care about anything else. She's like a robot, but she has moments of human insecurity and paranoia which is just wonderful to behold. She said something along the lines of "Please don't vote me out if I screw up this ITT lol" in group chat, and that just shows her human side. She's not an immortal, unbeatable robot, she's actually scared deep down, and I think that's perfection. There is a possibility for me to control her even more, by me promising her protection. I said "don't worry, I got your back no matter what~" or something along those lines to her in PM after she said that, and she said she was just paranoid that the guys would get together or something. To that, I said that Charlie would never do that to us -- he'd tell us. And she realized I was right and that she was just being paranoid. But, I'm trying to make sure that she values me more as an ally. If she's paranoid of Charlie getting against her like that, and me comforting her...perhaps I'm not her #2 after all. I think I still am, but I think I can work my way out of that pit and into her #1 status.

I said that I have her back and she has mine, just to see what she'd say. She said "Of course". Really not a very convincing way for me to believe you. I mean, come on, add a exclamation point at the end or something. That just felt wishy-washy. She doesn't really have any loyalty, I assume. I guess she's one of those types who'd flip wherever the wind is blowing. Which is, frankly, pretty stupid, if you want people to vote for you at the end. That kind of strategy can get you there, yes, but flip-flopping all around just makes everyone hate you and not want to vote for you unless your up against an even bigger jackass. I hope she'll stay loyal to Kidd, more particularly the four, and even more particularly me, but I'm really not sure. I think she's the least loyal person to the tribe here, but there's not much I can do about that. She's in the four, Charlie loves her, Lex likes her(I think? Maybe he's still freaking out about the "fair" thing. I barely talk to him one-on-one. That worries me a bit. I'll come back to this shortly.) I think Malcolm's the only person who'd be on board with removing her. So, I've just to put my faith in her and hope she doesn't screw things up for me.

Anyhow, I said I wanted to talk about Lexiepoo, and so I will. He never approaches me one-on-one, and I don't think he does to Kathy either...I should ask her about this, actually, next time I see her online. This is bothering me. Is he comfortable? Is he actually trying to form some manlliance? If so, I think Charlie and Malcolm would tell me, but still, his silence is peculiar. Maybe he's having a beach party with Ami and Sandra, hiding off in some remote location without Internet where they can be silent ~forever~. I tried talking to him about how happy/shocked we were to win the challenge, and he was like "ya hi im lex bye im tired now" He's worried about the other two tribes banding together in a powerful force of inactivity(coming from the guy who I don't think even posted a vote last tribal...we only had five votes show up. He doesn't have a single invisible post that I can see. He hasn't even posted a fucking confessional unless I'm counting wrong. What the heck?) and wiping us out. Then he disappeared. So...I just don't know what to do with him. Other people I have conversations with. We went four days without talking one-on-one and then I had to message him to get some half-assed conversation going. Ann~oy~ing~

So, I've spoken about Lex and Kathy. I would talk about Charlie, but the blurb I mentioned earlier that he told me about Kathy's thing was pretty much all that happened between us yesterday. I'm sad. I need more Charlie in my life. He's my favorite rn.

So now we'll move on tooooooooooooooooooooo VYTAS! Yes, Vytas! Malcolm? Who? Yeah, we can talk about him later...first, the wonderful and amazing Vytas! Man I love him. He's great, isn't he? He's my favorite off-tribe person. He's the only person who can hold a conversation, and he doesn't have some weird schtick to boot! He's so amazing. He's my second favorite person right now.

He approached me earlier, as amazing as usual, and said "Hi alina" If only I knew what this conversation would begin. Perfection. Amazingness. Grandeur.

We talked a bit, and I brought up the thought of "I wonder who Every will vote off! I've barely talked to anyone over there so I wouldn't know :x" something like that -- it was a pretty calculated sentence, actually, I added it on to something I previously said. It makes me look clueless, uninformed, and like I have few connections with that tribe. All good things I want him to think! The last part is actually true though. Screw Every. Worst tribe for sure. Anyways, he responded that I was the only person he talked to, cross-tribe who could carry a conversation too!!! How amazing is that? I thought my social skills were lacking. But no, I am the anointed conversation-carrier. My flattered-levels are nearing their limits.

I said the same back to him, because, hey, it was true. The only other person who counts as a conversation was Chet and he's not even a person. He's Chet. He's like a doll who you press a little button on the back and it randomizes a phrase to come out of its mouth. They usually include "Darling" or "Sweetie", by the way. Just in case you were curious. I'm a bit worried Chet told their tribe he talked to me, and maybe I was caught in some kind of a lie, but...hopefully not, yeah? I can always bring it up later. I said I kind of talked to Chet a little when the tribes were divided. I probably should have left it vague instead of being specific, but no use crying over spilt milk. Apparently spilt isn't a word...what? It's spilled? That's so stupid. Spilled sounds dumb. It should be split. That's so dumb. Why is that even a thing? Spilled. So dumb.

But then, he revealed the most amazing thing evar. He chose me as his Pokemon Master! Wait, I mean, his out-of-tribe alliance mate! Oh Vytas, how much I loved him in that moment was indescribable! I immediately accepted, and so our fate was sealed. Now, here's the thing, I am completely loyal to the Kidd tribe. I'm not flipping on them unless they're a sinking ship(, get it, pirates...yeah. I'll see myself out.) and there's no other choice. I'm not Kass. Or Kathy. My job is to seem like an idiot and be likable but "strategically incompetent" and then reveal at the end that I was actually amazing the whole time. Pissing people off for no reason isn't on my to-do-list. Social game, check. Winning strategy, check. Maybe I'm getting cocky here, but it really does seem like I'm in a wonderful position and I just can't hold in my glee.

He told me he'd keep me up to date on the Shenanigans in Lowe, but he didn't really say anything. That made me a little sad...but I'll give him chances to prove himself. I think he might just see me as a possible merge/swap ally, but that's fine. That means he's not going to let his tribe target me since I could be useful to him. ^.~ So...whatever. See me as an asset. Please. That just means I'm going to make it farther. I, however, immediately activated calculated-idiot mode and immediately started rambling on about how we all tried to find the idol and it had already been found. I wanted to seem like I'd tell him anything, like I was a moron, basically, and to also seem like I trusted him, even though I was telling him pretty much useless information, because, lets face it, ALL OF THE TRIBES HAVE AN IDOL. THERE IS NOT JUST ONE. I don't understand why people THINK there's only one, it BAFFLES me. Maybe they have an ulterior motive to push that idea, like I do, but I really doubt it. It's actually annoying me so much that they think there's only one that I just want to tell them NO, THERE ARE MULTIPLE. PLEASE THINK. THANK YOU. But I can't. I can't and it sucks.

Oh, Charlie's messaging me. ...Wait until that's over with to continue the confessional, or just keep writing? I dunno. Meh. I'll keep writing. I want to finish this up.

Okay, so, he DID reveal that Monica didn't reveal the map. He could be lying, but I don't see why he would. Monica is an idiot. Who the hell doesn't reveal something you KNOW is an idol clue? I thought you were smart, Monica. You burnt those clues like a genius. And now you're......what the hell are you doing exactly? I want to smack her for being so silly. That's just not smart, sweetie. No, honey, no...heh, well, whatever. We talked a bit more, and I feel I have a good backup plan with him, but also, I want to work on him to possibly flip over with us in a swap or merge scenario. This is where Lord Malcolm, king of the realm comes in. He's working on Natalie from Every, who I actually secretly despise and hope she gets voted out. Heh. Sorry, she's too smart and I think she's onto me or something. I dunno. She creeps me out. Please go home Natty! Thanksers~

Well, anyway, I told him I was working on Vytas. I want to make sure I have his trust, and by telling him this I think I further cement the fact in his mind that I trust him and that I tell him things, so...that's good. That means if someone plots something against me, he'll for sure tell me. I think Charlie would tell me, so that's 3 right there. Majority of people who won't vote for me! Yay!

Lex I don't know what to do with. He's slowly turning into Ami and becoming less and less active. Kind of depressing. Once again, I looked through his posts and he doesn't even have a single invisible post...how has he not even posted a confessional yet? What's it been? Two weeks almost? What the heck??? I think I believe you guys when you say I'm the only person writing long confessionals. Maybe it's because I actually have a diary in real life that I have fun doing this? Still, it's annoying to me even that he hasn't posted one yet if I'm right. If I was a host I would just obliterate him with lasers by now. You guys should do that actually...to like...everyone who hasn't posted as long confessionals as I have. Meaning I win instantly. Please? ^.^

And there's Kathy. I debated also telling her this info, since, like Malcolm, I talked about possible swap/merge strategies with her, but...yeah. She's Kathy. If I tell her she'll run off to Monica or some other random person WHO ISN'T EVEN ON OUR TRIBE and say "Wow did you hear that Alina did so-and-so." Like seriously. Why is she Kathy Vavrick-O'brien again? She should be Kathy Sleckman.

Blagh. Anyways. That's it for now, really. I think I may have forgotten something. I guess we put Crazy Kathy on the ITT challenge, but I already kind of talked about that...I still think I'm forgetting something but nothing's coming to mind. Straaange. Well, whatever! Laters!~

[Host Aras]

I believe I made it so that your post count doesn't go up in your confessional. Correct me if I'm wrong Alina! And thanks for the update

[Alina Wilson]

Oh. That makes sense then.  I was like whaaaaat