Post by Kelly Goldsmith on Sept 2, 2014 2:52:00 GMT
good lord i am so bad about updating this, i am really sorry. i don't have an excuse really, i spent the last weekend watching netflix and eating doritos in order to adequately mentally prepare myself for the start of the semester tomorrow. it was heavenly, but i should probably also finish unpacking my shit sometime soon. thankfully writing a confessional may not be above netflix on my list of priorities but it is certainly above unpacking so now you get another wonderfully boring rant from yours truly. remember when i said in my last confessional that i would be doing short updates as the game progresses instead of being lazy and waiting so long that i have to write a novella of a confessional? HAHAHAHAHAHAihatemylife
okay i need to fill the entire gap from where i ended in my last confessional, which is really really hard since it feels like so long ago i was doing that ITT challenge. so i’ll start with the miserable atrocity that was immunity challenge #3, which i had actually blocked out of my mind but now i have to dig all that shit back up just because i care about you all so much. go fuck yourself NATALIE you worthless pos i swear to god why did you volunteer to be the one to post the most in that challenge when you were the slowest fucking one out of me edgardo and you holy shit i spent most of that challenge refreshing constantly waiting for natalie to post her shit and i must have been able to refresh 20 or so times before i finally saw her steer that god damn stupid boat or whatever it was FUCK and then i also fucked up once because i posted my shit too fast BECUASE I THOUGHT NATALIE WOULD HAVE POSTED HERS BY THEN ANYWAY BUT THAT WAS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR
the worst part was having to be all “go team, we did great” after that challenge instead of the appropriate combination of bitching and passive-aggressively sulking. i fucking knew we woud lose, the only glimmer of hope i had was our ITT bonus but nope that bonus that i painstakingly and tirelessly fought for went right down the toilet along with natalie’s humongous worthless turd.
anyway that was around the time where i had virtually no access to my computer for like 3 consecutive days because i was hosting family and i had to take them to the us open and fucking six flags and then fucking philadelphia because they really wanted to go to fucking philadelphia for some reason so really my only communication with my tribe (basically katie and nat) was via the proboards messaging system. i had voted for edgardo because natalie had previously said that she thinks he has an idol since it was found by someone who had previously had the treasure map and she wanted to blindside him to get rid of the idol altogether, BUT when the time actually came for us to go to TC, they switched to the easy vote based on inactivity and so we voted brett. now edgardo is probably going to win the game or something thanks a lot universe
and then the tribe swap, which i thought would totally suck but i was okay with the change in the game. it sucks that i couldn’t get katie with me, but there’s also the benefit of both of us definitely reuniting after merge with 2x the amount of info about the other alliances on the two tribes. at least i hope that’s still the plan, i know how easy it is to fall in with the alliances on the tribe you are currently on, and i haven’t even spoken to katie in a while so we’ll see. their tribe had to go to TC and that obviously means that alliances had to be formed no matter how fleeting they are, and i’m worried that could mean katie will abandon poor old kelly at the merge. monica was voted out which was absolutely awful but that’s the game i guess
so now we’re going to TC regardless of how this puzzle thing goes and so everyone on the tribe has had to go from casual indifference towards tribe dynamic to hyper-strategizing mode. so basically, there are 3 original everies (me, nat, colby) both of whom i trust for the most part (mostly nat, although definitely not as much as katie). and then 2 kidds (malcolm/kathy) and 2 lowes (vytas/denise). i was worried about the possibility of the kidds/lowes working together for a majority but thankfully that doesn’t seem to be the case and it seems like the everies are actually the ones in the power position somehow.
the only problem is that there is a little bit of tension on who we actually want to vote out when we go to TC tomorrow. colby has already spoken to vytas about vytas/denise teaming up with the everies and that kathy would be the target since everyone would feel bad voting malcolm out since he actually wants to be here quite a lot and also would probably be loyal to us in the post-merge. MY only issue with this is the fact that i KNOW malcolm would be loyal to us in the post-merge, but the person i do not trust in that capacity is actually vytas himself (and denise too i guess). malcolm and kathy’s original tribe was apparently not communicative or tight at all, and me/nat have actually made an effort to talk to them (well malcolm at least) so i’m pretty sure they would both stick to me/nat after the merge. malcolm even told me on the night of the swap that he owes me one for letting him get 2nd place in the ITT challenge and that he wants to work with me to the end, which sounds completely ridiculous but i actually kind of believe him. i do think that kathy is a little shady but i think that if malcolm can control her, then she would be an asset to keep around. on the other hand, i really can’t imagine vytas/denise not flipping back to their tribe after merge.
the only problem again is colby/nat. again, just like the brett vote in which we should have got rid of edgardo, nat wants to appease colby and take out the easy target so that there isn’t a split within the tribe because colby would get alienated if we vote differently from him. the way colby is so chummy with vytas/denise pretty much confirms my suspicions that the every/lowe alliance early in the game before the tribe swap was so quick to be made because colby had a cross-tribal alliance with them and now i feel that colby has a f2 with vytas that he would be loyal to over any of the original everies. malcolm, of course, would rather get rid of denise than his original tribemate kathy and i agree with him because denise is shady as hell and i want to cut the lowes down a peg. if natalie got on board, we’d have the votes, but again, she doesn’t want to piss colby off which is annoying as hell I WANT TO MAKE A MOVE GODDAMNIT. what i want to happen is for kathy to win immunity, and then vytas/denise/colby will have no choice but to target malcolm. in that case, i think i can get nat to vote denise with me/kathy/malcolm because nat really trusts malcolm like i do and wouldn’t want him to go. on the other hand, neither of us really give a shit about kathy but i still don’t want her to leave because i think it would be a waste and a poor move in the long-term. i’ll vote kathy if nat doesn’t budge but i won’t be happy about it. and if colby pulls some shit after merge then i fckin told you so nat
okay i need to fill the entire gap from where i ended in my last confessional, which is really really hard since it feels like so long ago i was doing that ITT challenge. so i’ll start with the miserable atrocity that was immunity challenge #3, which i had actually blocked out of my mind but now i have to dig all that shit back up just because i care about you all so much. go fuck yourself NATALIE you worthless pos i swear to god why did you volunteer to be the one to post the most in that challenge when you were the slowest fucking one out of me edgardo and you holy shit i spent most of that challenge refreshing constantly waiting for natalie to post her shit and i must have been able to refresh 20 or so times before i finally saw her steer that god damn stupid boat or whatever it was FUCK and then i also fucked up once because i posted my shit too fast BECUASE I THOUGHT NATALIE WOULD HAVE POSTED HERS BY THEN ANYWAY BUT THAT WAS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR
the worst part was having to be all “go team, we did great” after that challenge instead of the appropriate combination of bitching and passive-aggressively sulking. i fucking knew we woud lose, the only glimmer of hope i had was our ITT bonus but nope that bonus that i painstakingly and tirelessly fought for went right down the toilet along with natalie’s humongous worthless turd.
anyway that was around the time where i had virtually no access to my computer for like 3 consecutive days because i was hosting family and i had to take them to the us open and fucking six flags and then fucking philadelphia because they really wanted to go to fucking philadelphia for some reason so really my only communication with my tribe (basically katie and nat) was via the proboards messaging system. i had voted for edgardo because natalie had previously said that she thinks he has an idol since it was found by someone who had previously had the treasure map and she wanted to blindside him to get rid of the idol altogether, BUT when the time actually came for us to go to TC, they switched to the easy vote based on inactivity and so we voted brett. now edgardo is probably going to win the game or something thanks a lot universe
and then the tribe swap, which i thought would totally suck but i was okay with the change in the game. it sucks that i couldn’t get katie with me, but there’s also the benefit of both of us definitely reuniting after merge with 2x the amount of info about the other alliances on the two tribes. at least i hope that’s still the plan, i know how easy it is to fall in with the alliances on the tribe you are currently on, and i haven’t even spoken to katie in a while so we’ll see. their tribe had to go to TC and that obviously means that alliances had to be formed no matter how fleeting they are, and i’m worried that could mean katie will abandon poor old kelly at the merge. monica was voted out which was absolutely awful but that’s the game i guess
so now we’re going to TC regardless of how this puzzle thing goes and so everyone on the tribe has had to go from casual indifference towards tribe dynamic to hyper-strategizing mode. so basically, there are 3 original everies (me, nat, colby) both of whom i trust for the most part (mostly nat, although definitely not as much as katie). and then 2 kidds (malcolm/kathy) and 2 lowes (vytas/denise). i was worried about the possibility of the kidds/lowes working together for a majority but thankfully that doesn’t seem to be the case and it seems like the everies are actually the ones in the power position somehow.
the only problem is that there is a little bit of tension on who we actually want to vote out when we go to TC tomorrow. colby has already spoken to vytas about vytas/denise teaming up with the everies and that kathy would be the target since everyone would feel bad voting malcolm out since he actually wants to be here quite a lot and also would probably be loyal to us in the post-merge. MY only issue with this is the fact that i KNOW malcolm would be loyal to us in the post-merge, but the person i do not trust in that capacity is actually vytas himself (and denise too i guess). malcolm and kathy’s original tribe was apparently not communicative or tight at all, and me/nat have actually made an effort to talk to them (well malcolm at least) so i’m pretty sure they would both stick to me/nat after the merge. malcolm even told me on the night of the swap that he owes me one for letting him get 2nd place in the ITT challenge and that he wants to work with me to the end, which sounds completely ridiculous but i actually kind of believe him. i do think that kathy is a little shady but i think that if malcolm can control her, then she would be an asset to keep around. on the other hand, i really can’t imagine vytas/denise not flipping back to their tribe after merge.
the only problem again is colby/nat. again, just like the brett vote in which we should have got rid of edgardo, nat wants to appease colby and take out the easy target so that there isn’t a split within the tribe because colby would get alienated if we vote differently from him. the way colby is so chummy with vytas/denise pretty much confirms my suspicions that the every/lowe alliance early in the game before the tribe swap was so quick to be made because colby had a cross-tribal alliance with them and now i feel that colby has a f2 with vytas that he would be loyal to over any of the original everies. malcolm, of course, would rather get rid of denise than his original tribemate kathy and i agree with him because denise is shady as hell and i want to cut the lowes down a peg. if natalie got on board, we’d have the votes, but again, she doesn’t want to piss colby off which is annoying as hell I WANT TO MAKE A MOVE GODDAMNIT. what i want to happen is for kathy to win immunity, and then vytas/denise/colby will have no choice but to target malcolm. in that case, i think i can get nat to vote denise with me/kathy/malcolm because nat really trusts malcolm like i do and wouldn’t want him to go. on the other hand, neither of us really give a shit about kathy but i still don’t want her to leave because i think it would be a waste and a poor move in the long-term. i’ll vote kathy if nat doesn’t budge but i won’t be happy about it. and if colby pulls some shit after merge then i fckin told you so nat